Memories

Before the memories of me hit Facebook remember you had the chance to tell me you loved me. Although I cried out for help you seemed to ignore it and write it off as a attention seeking.

Before the memories of me float around the community. We all had a chance to check on each other. The days I sat on the porch and waited for to”you speak back! It’s crazy how you ignored me.

Before the memories of me become break room talk! The smile I had everyday wasn’t to greet you. The call ins I made was from the depression I formed. The small conversations were a cry out for help!

Before the memories of me sink in for the love of my life! I asked for assistance in daily task. I asked for the simple pleasures but you spent time with friends and others because at the end of the day you came home to me!

Tonight you will think, “What could I have said?”
Tonight that seat on the porch will trouble you!
Tonight the break room will seem colder!
Tonight you come home to an empty house!

Tonight… I want you to know there is nothing you could have done! There is nothing you could have said because I felt hopeless. I needed the help but wasn’t brave enough to tell you! I was worried about what other people would have said! I expected you to know by looking in my face! I wanted my subtle gestures be my saving grace!

Please ask for help, your life is worth living! The dreams that you have will be achieved. The rain doesn’t last forever, the sun will come!

Before the memories of me flood your mind! Remember someone cares and would love a moment of your time!!

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